Being Idle and I don't Mix.

This is from Thursday..................

I am sitting in my van at a dead stop since 8:42.  It is now 9:02.

So much for being in the office at 9.

I have been patient with this so far, drinking coffee, listening to tunes.  I call into work and let them know I will be there as soon as this traffic clears.

Now I start to get antsy.  The reason is that I have a very difficult time being idle. 

Not just in my car, but in life.  My heart starts to pump faster, teeth start clenching.  I feel like an annoyed bull in a pen.  Let me free!

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Ok.  Ok.  "Roll  with it."

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Deep breathes.

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Some more deep breathes.

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I have a pen.  I have a notebook!

little notebook : BIG ideas little book

Just write.

I don't recomend writing and driving,  but I am NOT moving at all.

Not sure why I have such a problem being stuck here.  It is quiet expet for the music I am choosing to play.  It is warm, so windows are down.  You know me, I am a fresh-air addict.

I start thinking about the whole creative process and what I physically and emotionally feel when creating something,  and when I want to but cannot.  

Being creative is a  must for me.

If I am not able to express myself somehow creativly, things start to turn ugly.

Creating is an energy and if it is not manifested into something positive, the energy just gets stuck.  It ends up coming up anyway but in ways that are negative.  Yelling at the kids, being short with Hubby, being moody. 

This is so true.  As I sit her I realize this.

I heard Brene Brown on Oprah's Super Soul Sunday speak about this.  She said that

Unused creativity is not benign.  It metastasizes and turns into grief, rage, and shame.  We are Divine beings and we are by nature creative! 

I think that is brilliant and perfectly said.  

This is on the "to read"list for me.

Alright.    

Traffic is moving.  

Again, so am I. 


Love, Peace and Sandy Feet,
Mama Nic

I know what I want. Now what?

First of all I would like to send a loving thought and prayer out to everyone that has been affected by the tornado in Oklahoma.  My heart goes out to all of you in OK and beyond. 

This is the second "Windows of the Soul Wednesdays." 

"A vision allow you to see yourself where you have never been, and belief that you will get there" - Dana Kern

So you have thought about what you want out of life.  I mean, you have REALLY thought about it.  You can see it.  You can smell it.  You can taste it.  You can hear it.  This is how detailed you need to be in your dream of what you wish your life to look like. If you haven't gotten there yet, there is no reason in the world you cannot start now.

You can accomplish this in one way by using mediation.  Yes, thinking of nothing brings you a crystal clear vision.
 


Deepak Chopra is the guy that finally got through to me as to how to meditate.  I have tried in the past to practice meditation,  but have to admit that I never really got it before he came along.  Click on this link to watch a wonderful video that will explain how to do this.

 

"Infinite power of intention!" is what Deepak defines mediation as.  Click here for some guidance.

My dream involves a two-year plan to.  I will live and enjoy all the days in between, but I keep focus and determination knowing I have something I am working towards.  But I am proud of myself for having a clear dream and for allowing myself to believe that it will come true.  It will take time, faith, and a mother-load of work to get there, and ya knokw what?  I am ok with that. 

I hope this post gives you some hope, and lights a fire in you if you are not completely happy with your life to do something about it and change it.  Live your dream. 

For me, making a real life plan with the help of my husband, was what I needed to do next.  Luckily for us our dreams have very similar threads that run through them and were able to partner up on how we plan to get where we want to be.  I have created a beautiful timeline that I can refer to when necessary by using this website, Tiki-Toki. Your should check it out. 

I believe lots of good can also come from inspirational words and daily reminders.  Have you started following me on Pinterest?  I have a handy link on the top right column of my blog that says "follow me on pinterest" if you wish.  This board is called "Follow My Bliss" and I invite you to take a look around.  Maybe something will strike a chord with you.  If so, print it out and post it somewhere that you can see it everyday.

Keep on keeping on, Mamas.

Love, Peace, and Sandy Feet,
Mama Nic

Refill? Yes, please.

My cup needs a refill.

As Mothers we are givers by nature.  It comes natural.  It comes with the job.  It comes from deep within us when we are so tired we can't see or think straight.  Somehow we find the place where it comes from and it just flows.  Giving flows out of us everyday, every second of our lives whether we realize it or not.

We give our bodies, our breastmilk, a bottle.  We give up our sleep, our last bite of toast, sips of our water because Mama's water is somehow better than their water.  We give care when they are sick, we give rides to playdates, we give out band-aids.  We give out meals and snacks and at time's time-outs.  As you know, the list is infinite.

We give, give, give, give, give and then give again.  If you are called "Mama" you know this to be true.

Well friends, just shy of  four months into being a Mama of three I think my cup is in dire need of a refill.  I have given so much of myself in this last year especially that I recognize that I need to start getting something back to refill me.  Refuel me.

I acknowledge that my cup is getting near empty and if you ask me for a refill, I will certainly accept.  I will refill by noticing and savoring all the little miracles that happen every day.  A smile and laugh from my youngest one, a hug from my middle child and laughing at a funny story that my oldest is telling me.  I will refill with a hug from my spouse, a chat with a friend, a trip out of the house to be alone and collect myself again.  All these things will slowly fill me back up.  I am putting it out to the Universe that I am accepting a life of abundance.  Bring it on world.  I am ready.

What I was doing for a while was emptying my cup and before I knew it, I was almost down to the last drop.  That feeling of being down to the last drop is not something I want in my life and so I am actively trying to do something about it.

Here are a few things that I am doing.

I am reading this book.   Thanks, Oprah for a fine recommendation. 

  I am trying to get Yoga back into my life.  I have yet to get to a class but I am doing some movement everyday.  I actually did go to two classes so far and they BOTH happened to be cancelled!  I ended up doing yoga with a nice lady I met who was there for the class too and she happened to have been a yoga instructor in the past so........the two of us found a nice patch of grass (well, leaves at this point) and I followed her lead in some sun salutations.  It was totally spontaneous and maybe some passer-by's thought we were crazy but, we didn't care.   So in the meantime, I have been using  the app "Pocket Yoga"and "Yoga" to fill the gap.  I am also using the app "Buddist Mediation."

Speaking of meditation, I am LOVING the 21 Day Mediation Challenge lead by Deepak Chopra!  I highly suggest that you start it now if you haven't already.  It is about crating abundance in your life.  Click here to check it out.....you will not be dissapointed.The hardest part of the challenge is to actually find the 15 minutes of quiet to do it.  But it wouldn't be called a challenge if it was supposed to be easy.  I am into day 5 and have found the time every day so far.  It has been a priority.

I partly blame my hormone crash from the Mirena still for some of my feelings of anxiety and low feelings.  I have Googled Post-partum depression and Premenstrual Dysphoric Disorder,  but I really think I am just a Mama with a lot on her plate and need to give myself a break.  I have talked to a doctor for anyone you are thinking that I shouldn't be diagnosing myself.  I am not doing that.  I still have some wits about me.  He thinks I am ok......just overwhelmed and need to give myself more time to heal. So let the healing begin.  Let  my cup be refilled and my cup runneth over.

Below are some things that have certainly helped my cup fill back up....drop by drop.











Love you all.

Namaste.

Mama Nic