Saturday, April 28, 2012

Ch Ch Ch Ch Changes

Flowers from my co-workers, my 2nd family.
I know, I know.  I owe you a big fat post.  It has been over a week since I have written anything and that for me is not normal.  Hope you weren't worried.  I thought about writing several times,  but honestly.....I have been struggling.  MUCH has changed since last time I wrote but I didn't have one single ounce of energy to fill you in.

That brings me to Ch Ch Ch CHANGES..........

OK.  Here goes.

You all know I have been going to physical therapy for the last 2 months and while it helps while I am there and maybe for that night, the pain quickly returns with my hour commute each way to work each way plus sitting at a desk all day, then taking care of two wee ones when I get home,  all while carrying this precious baby girl.  I am beyond the normal exhaustion and I felt like a Zombie Mom.   I was leaving work early or struggling just to get by every day.  My coworker even set up the back of her car with memory foam, blankets, and pillows so I could nap a while on my break. My car has to many car-seats to allow for resting in there, and although this felt strange to do......when you are that tired, it works.  I was also having multiple doc appointments a week and was out of sick and vacation time so this was becoming tricky.  Which also meant I couldn't call out if I needed to.  I was at an emotional and physical breaking point.  I hit the wall.

Out of the blue at work they approached me with an offer.  They must had realized how hard it would have to come back full-time after baby number three and had an offer for me.  Stay on the job until baby comes or doc says enough is enough, take my maternity leave and when I am ready, come back part-time to a different position OR sign that I am coming back full-time to my same position.  I slept on it for a night and signed for the part-time option.  It was the only logical answer and this was exactly what I needed.  I was so relieved that things were actually going to work out!  It felt like a small miracle.  Something to be thankful for, for sure.

So my Zombie Mom state continued along with growing back pain.  I saw the Hematologist again this week.  Good news is my platelet count has NOT dropped in the last month.  Wahooooo!  Although doc reminded me that from this point on is when the counts generally start to dip.  But for now,  things are OK...still lower than a normal count but not so bad.  I will take it.

The next day I had my bi-weekly OB/GYN appointment and with my growing laundry list of complications (and belly), this weeks report of more horrible cramping and strong braxton hicks,  doubled with how tired and in pain I have been in from my back......she pulled the plug on working.  Although this was going to shock some people at work and was going to be financially not the best was what was best for baby girl and I.  We desperately needed this to happen.  Now we would potentially have 11 and a half weeks to focus on us.  Get as strong and healthy both physically and emotionally as possible.  I happily accept this new job.

I went into work the next day to work a couple hours and let everyone know.  The outpouring of love and support was overwhelming.  Lots of hugs, tears, emails, flowers and balloons and a wonderful send off.  I love my work family more than I can say.

A new chapter begins............

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  1. I am so glad that your work family has been supportive. That is so important. I give you so much credit for riding it out this far with the pain that you have been in. With baby #3 and #4, I had pelvic separation which led to chronic, intense lower back pain and also pain in the hips, pelvis and thighs. And, like you, I was having contractions early on. I don't think I would have made it as far as you did. You are so strong. You definitely deserve these next few weeks to rest and relax (if you can). Wishing you much peace and comfort.

    1. Thanks, Amy! Sounds like you had a heck of a time too with some of you pregnancies. I thank you for still reading along and as always.....your words of support.